hm..think im gonna blog lesser and lesser...getting kinda sick of it..its so troublesome..until when i feel like it again,too free for it,den i'll do so i guess..
i need lots of money man~!im goin to thailand soon,jay n i den anniversary comin soon,christmas,all coming so soon..i need alot of money! =/ im desprate..but still,dun reali wanna work,if work,i got to commit alot of my time,but if i can find a job that doesnt require mi to stand,and reasonable pay,i might give it a serious consideration..
11:35 PM
16/11/2005
hm..jay came over to my place in e morning while im still in sch,den when return home,i saw him! :) so happy to see him..hm..den we had a nap,till afternoon,went makan wif his mom at tampines sakae sushi..wow!we ate 30+ plates of thingy!vry vry full man..den we walk walk awhile den return home..Den at nite got to go for Lok Wei's birthday at zouk,but jay cant go,cos he got to work e next day morn,if he go,he will die,cos he'll be vry tiring..Hm..tis is my first time going to zouk after the renovation,nothing much la actually,just that more lightings,e tiles changed,and the tunnel became more eski lo..Zenny,Andy,Lok wei,daniel,wei hua,soo sing,joycelyn,celine,and gallen was there,so happy to meet up wif them again!got alot to catch up..cos all of us are so busy wif our own stuff,den havent see each other for quite some time..ya..den it was 1-for-1 from 11-12,den we order n order till i leong! and my friends got kinda high la..and we danced till onli 1+,dunno y,but they jus say go home le,den go lo..im ok wif it,cos e purpose is to celebrate birthday boy's birthday, and jus to see wad changes has been made..Anyway i still got sch to attend e next day ma..
17/11/2005
Arghhh..got to wake up for sch early in the morning at 9,sian..as usual i cant wake up,i slept till 9.30,den go sch..though will only be abit late,but made varian wait..haha..as usual la..hm..jus a normal day lo..just that i went for my first CDS tutorial today,quite ok la..supposingly its 2hrs tutorial,but the tutor onli taught for 1 hr,den can go le..:) im so tired now..but wanna watch 7o'clock show,so got to dong lo..sleeping early tonite i guess.. *yaWn*
6:38 PM
Um..actually yesterday would be onli a slacking day,but at nite,meiyi,jay,jj,n i,decided to go dwn k-ster.Jay and i havent went sing for like 1mth+,we r as good as rotten.Hm..but its not a bad nite la,i could reach high tone in "In Love With You" sang by jacky cheng n Regine.Wahhaa.. Meiyi kpkb say i've improved. *winkz* ya..they say i cant be proud too.. o.O
Hm..after singing went makan,there is this baik porridge nearby ma..All of us were so tired,so after eating went straight home. -_-" i still got class this morning at 9am! Expected,i cant wake up,wanted to wake up at 8,but irritating jay forgt to help mi put alarm,so i woke up at 8.30am.Though its not very late,but im rushing like mad woman.Hm..today went sch wif my new ugly hair cut,but sad to say,nobody is amused by my hair cut,i didnt manage to scare anyone.But ya,i got positive comments from my classmates,which made mi feel comforted too! Some dont even realise that i've cut my hair,dunno is reali nv notice,or they jus dun wanna hurt me...hee~
yaya..den return home after sch,den sleep till 7.30pm.Too tired to be true...Hm,Jay today dream of a big spider at my place,den he tried to protect me,and ended getting attack from e big spider.The spider is big enough to cover his face from his description.It jumped from e floor to his face,it open its claws? and wrapped it around his face.wahaha...i got to know that he had this nightmare because i was lying beside him until he jumped n struggle from his dream.wahaha..so funny!
10:38 PM
Hm..its Sunday n im rotting at home,actually slacking la..Well,im actually quite bothered wif my hair cut hours ago,its too decent to be true..Hm..some say maybe im not used to is,some only laugh..but after talking to ivy on msn this afternoon,i decided to take some pics n show her,ono,aaron, and shellen.Hm..they gave positive comments,be it words of comfort or wadsoeva,i felt better,alot better.. :) thanks!
Hm..i've got alot of friends around me,people like meiyi,zenny,kat,ivy,ono+rongfa,ww and all..they made me feel better,at least now i have no prob in showing u guys my pics le..
Its not too bad afterall i guess,and wif jay's supporting words, and assurance..Though it look decent,its fresh and no one would still say im an ah lian liao lo.. :)
Hm..After a month or so of staying home,maybe tonight we can finally be going to partyworld KTV (cuppage).Lets hope bah..
im goin to show u guys my decent short hair..
5:06 PM
hm..went to have a haircut today wif jay...he asked mi to cut short,and so..i did lo..i choose a vry style hair from e magazine..but..when i cut le,it does not appear like that..not style at all..i look so decent,so gentle now.. At first i still quite like it,but after talking to mei yi in msn,i feel quite sad le..there goes my long hair,and my new look now is like..vry student.. :( no nice,without colour... Its always e case man..thats why im afraid of going to e salon and have my hair cut..i'll always regret..This kinda hair how to go club?how to go out n wear nice nice? hai~ jay still say nice, at first i find it nice too..but now..i dunno.. :(
6:04 PM
hm..im sick..feeling awful these few days..
Um..School started on monday,so far quite ok la..just that think im still in holiday mood or im bcos sick,feel very lazy and kant concentrate..My class got few more unknown new classmates..dunno where they r from,never talk to them.And e class without ah ger and vette seems different..bk always stay home and sleep,kar wai still e same la,varian still keeps sleeping,everyone the same,but the atmosphere seems diff. i hope its onli bcos all of us jus come back from 2mths of holis,den all vry lazy,and soon after we all can go makan n all together again.hai~vette n ah ger very ke lian..diff class from us,gt to be on their own,n noe none of their classmates..or rather,they have no classmates,cos they keep changing class.if i were them,i dunno how man..but seriously,ah ger n vette,u all cant afford to fail,i noe its boring attending class urself,but no choice,if u all keep skipping,how to pass?so aiya..mus tolerate lo..maybe next yr we can see each other more often.. =)
hai~i got alot of lab test n quizes on e week im goin to thailand..how man!? :( i hope i can go..we'll see how ba..
oh ya..today that stupid fulin acting cute again..varian,karwai,adrain,n i,we gt in e same lift as fulin,and he goes"beep beep beep beep,doors closing..",while he controls the button of e lift.And he goes"beep beep beep beep,doors opening..",when e door opens.OMG!!!he dares to do this kinda thing when there are so many strangers in e lift,excluding us la..there are indeed weird ppl around e world! wahahaha..
hm..tml last day of the week! wee!! vry fast leh..a week passes so fast,ppl from army gets to book out,ppl working in office finally get some rest,n poly students like us finally can sleep longer!
6:02 PM
um..a short blog today..workin at expo metro sales for Dr. Marten's,pay ok la..but darn bored la..the whole day talk to bobby,eat chips,and serve lo..hai~im falling sick soon..i can feel it.. -_-" its been quite awhile since i last fall sick..everytime goin to fall sick le,i will drink lots of water so that i wont fall sick..im goin to do e same tis time..but hope it works again lo..if not tml still got work,dunno can tahan not..and school reopening next week..meaning e day after tml..quite happy la..so i can study again!
hm..the whole day onli had breakfast,about half a plate of shui jiao mian,and few mouth of carrot cake,and dinner,cup noodle..unhealthy hor?but bo pian la..not reali hungry,and besides,can jian fei!haha!!think im goin to change my blog skin again..haha..
11:00 PM
Went to Tanjong Pagar wif Rong Fa and company jus now,hm..Rong fa is late for ard 2hrs man..but nvm la..can see that he is reali paiseh.Hm..den went to a pub name 82,the boss there birthday,its none of our business though,but aiya,i always reject goin wif rong fa and company,so paiseh n went lo..but its reali not a bad nite!i had a great laugh throughout the nite! =D
The place is vry messy,shoutings all around,drunkards here and there,liquors everywhere!At first mei yi n i was like,wah sian! But not too long later,we got some 'appetizer entertainment'.
Two drunkards (my fren's fren) came to our table,and kpkb,jio each other drink,dunno wad one in one out way of drinking from straws,they drink mixture of stout and martel.They r crazy!yaya..den they kpkb,tis n tt kept us entertained.Then the birthday boss,already drunk,jio rong fa n company,he poured 5 secs of martel into each of their mouth,den drink at once..den Rong fa became a big red lobster! wahaha..they r reali that heong!
Alot of unknown ppl came to our table and pian jiu,i tot they all noe each other,cos rong fa and company are e regulars there,but at the end of the day,i found out they dunno all e pian jiu ppl..onli some..So guys,there are alot of thick skiners out there de!
Den i notice this petite girl in white,with black short hair,she keep singing,but it was like 'hey,can u dun spoil the song!?',ya..get wad i mean?she kpkb,seems like noe my frens for quite long le like tt,touch here touch there..dunno is my fren tan tio or chi kui..Eeeyyerr!Yucks!Den mi n meiyi went to e toilet,guess wad!?That place is so happening until someone shitted in the girl's toilet,it isnt surprising ya?How about if i tell u,its on the floor?and the toilet is not a squarting one..GOSH!! its like too er xin to be true man..and i saw e shit,its like dog's droppings man..and of cos its not done by a girl,its by a guy,a girl came to tell us while we were waiting for the toilet.Hm..i tink tis is our soup bah..
Here comes our 'Main Course'!!! Remember i was mentioning about the girl in white?singing throughout the nite?ya..she's our 'Main Course'.First thing that happen was,her fren accidentally hit her head wif a bottle of chivas while pouring e liquor,den she started CRYING!!!!! i was like o.O? Who would cry over that!?mei yi n a laughed out at once!we reali cant control man..Butthis is reali not th funniest joke on earth man..there's more to come,i promise!Then came another incident when she thought she lost her bag,den she started crying again!crying bitterly that she called her hp,and its off le..actually me,meiyi n rong fa all noes that her bag is at the other corner of the sofa,vry near her,but we cant be bothered to even say.but she kpkb till i buey tahan den i told her 'eh..ur bag over there la.' -_-" Then she search her bag for her hp (havent stop crying yet),den she cant find (but its inside),den she cried out louder! -_-"" den a guy help her find,and found,and she still.. 'but i jus now call,its off!why is it off!' (crying even LOUDER!)-_-"""
Argh!!! she's vry annoying man! and she goes around shouting out loud "KOR!KOR!KOR!!!!". I reali ponder which era is she from man! -_-" disgusting xiao mei mei actions man!
K,den at the end of the day,onli 3 ppl from our grp are sober,mi,meiyi,n ono.the other 3 are quite drunk-rong fa,han wei,zai ming.den we went out of the pub,dile deli awhile,finally onli left 1 not sober,all others awake le..oh ya..its not the end about of our 'Main Course'.The girl kpkb,and suddenly she shouted like some siao ginna.
She goes " ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO GO TOILET!!!!!!!!! *SOB* (crying like crazy!)" She SCREAM! She shook her head vigourously as though it may fly out anytime! She stamped her feet hard on the ground,den lie flat on the dirty road pleading out loud for a toilet!(beside the place where rong fa vomitted,AND MIND YOU,cars might drive in and out of this road,she might be killed w/o ppl noticing and herself knowing) Still..no one bothers,we r too busy enjoying the show.She got tired shouting and screaming,den she find a spot,to sit down and she start shaking her head again,crying out very loud,and she goes "ARGH!!ni men jiu jiu wo ar!wo zhen de hen ji!wo zhi xu yao yi ge toilet er yi,dou mei you!" -_-" We continue to watch show and did nothing, besides laughing,imitating,n see wad pattern she wanna chut.
Here comes part 2....
She roared:"I WANNA GO 7-11 TO FIND TOILET!"
zai ming: "SIAO!7-11 WHERE GOT TOILET!"
She insisted there is,and chut her final pattern.She dashed across the road w/o looking out for cars (In my 19yrs of life,now den i realise that someone can actually risk her life for a toilet).
She swang her right hand hard in the air,and swore "I WILL DIG A TOILET OUT OF 7-11!!!"
meiyi: "wei toilet er si de nu ren." -_-'''
The scenario was in a chaotic mess,zaiming and another girl dashed after her.Me,meiyi,rong fa and ono continue to stand still. Rong fa continue to look as blank and feeling as blur,Ono was like -_-"",as usual,meiyi n i were laughing hard.We didnt bother if she found a toilet,within minutes,she was back,wif swallon eyes. We really don't wish to continue laughing further,cos rong fa was starving.We hired a cab,and went to seng pang bedok for roti pratas.
Our nite was greatly entertained by weirdos!wad a happening nite!I had a great time laughing.
Moral of the story:
IF U NOTICE YOUR FRIENDS HAVING SIGNS OF LOSING WEIGHT,LOSING APPETITE,CRYING OVER THE SLIGHTEST THING,OR FOR NOTHING,OR EVEN FOR A TOILET,LOSING TEMPER AND HAVING THOUGHTS OF ATTEMPTING SUICIDES.HE/SHE MIGHT BE SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION.PLEASE PERSUADE HIM/HER TO CONSULT A DOCTOR,DEPRESSION CAN BE CURED.
*A pair of black shoes,sticking out of the overhead bridge,with moving vehicals under the overhead bridge*
6:03 AM
um..yesterday is my last day at parkway watson promoting truematch..hm..pleasant day,actually planned to have pasta mania buddy meal with e girls at parkway,but kat start work late,den n tis n tat..we didnt go and have pasta mania.Hm..today some of u all mus have started sch..ke lian! haha..mine next week..cant wait to go back! :P Hm..den at nite jay n family came look for mi,den we went to bedok 85 makan dinner..ah po's minced meat noodle took so long!yaya..den mi n jay went home,n niam di di e whole nite..wahaha!
this morn,i w0ke up n checked my ebay bidding result,but OMG! im outbidded! im vry angry man! by only $0.50!! shit! im so so angry!i love e top alot man!its a levis halter neck..ANGRY angry!!!actually e day is all about jay n i niam-ing..nothing much..watch tv,play game n all..oh ya..n sleep..and i w0ke up at 8+ bcos of a nightmare!i dreamt of a philipino guy,uses his finger and poke my butt!!and i got so angry and kan him wif some hokkien well-known vulgarities! and fought him,den dunno how dunno why he gt his friends,den i fought wif his 3 philipino girl-frens!..........den i wake up le..
hai~now dun reali feel good..jus quarrel wif jay..and deleted n blocked 2 quite new friends from my msn..n i jus wanna lead a peaceful life frm now..dun wan anyone to be in our way..
i hate myself too..i dunno why when my temper flares up,i'll always end up shouting,givin that disgusting expression,and wadeva i say is like so hurting.. =`( i dun wanna be this way..i wonder when i'll stop..
i always wanted you to choose mi from a million,and not stick wif me cos u only have me..i've told u a lot of times,and i reali mean it..but i hated myself,i said that,i meant that,but when real things happen,i dun feel good..i'll even flare my temper..i hate myself..i hatemyself for saying so much hurting words today..to hurt ur pride,if i were u,i wouldnt wanna dote a girl like this..i wouldnt wanna be wif her,i feel so bad...jus so bad...i hate my temper,i hate my childishness,i hate my character,hate my possesive-ness,i hate everything thats in me..i just hate regine...im sorry..but i noe wadeva done cannot be undone..
2:00 AM
