Saturday, April 29, 2006
Met meiyi yesterday at tampines,went kia kia den to coffee bean talk cock.Um..didnt meet her for quite long le,anyway i feel nothing has change la..i mean our relations. :) We stil kp the way we usually do,we still share every bit of our everyday life.Then we part at bout 8+,cos she's goin to woodlands,and i wanna get back fast,before roger wakes up,so that he wont feel bored.
Anyway,when i reach his place,he is still sleeping soundly. :)
We sleep till dunno wad time,anyway,we went for prata at ard 4.Nah..not simpang,we went Thomson for the singapore best prata! i yearn to have prata there for very very long man..i havent went for like years?I thought the prata shop is stil located at the upper pierce road,but when we reach,i found out that its no longer there! :( was so sad..Den went to another baik prata shop.When reach,i found alot of news papers articles on the wall,feel like its kinda connected to the prata shop that i was initially looking for.Then roger ask the ah bung,OMG! it is! Then i found out that they actually shifted from upper pierce over for quite some time.How old school i am man..haha..Anyway The prata is very nice..too nice.. :)
Then left bout 5+.
Erm..yea till now,we are awake,we didnt sleep.We play games all the way til ard 8+?and now,roger is playing war craft,and im using the lap top.Meeting my mom soon at pasir ris,mom is bringing us to go have sakura buffet! SHIOK! Dunno why,recently my mom enjoy life..haha..
11:12 AM
Friday, April 28, 2006
Haha..pathetic people are all around man! Some idiots jus came in to my blog and kpkb..people grow up man..wanna kp,come kp straight in my face,dun be some hum ji gao type behind the screen.This is my blog,who the fuck ask u all come and read,den get agitated?This is my blog and my blog is for me to kpkb all my rants about anyone in the world.Coming in and flood my tag board is too low class.Yucks..
Um..im here stating the facts,wad alecia did,she should noe it best.And whether is it her,or her so called 'frens' come in and kp,haha..poor so called 'frens' u all are,you all dun even know wad kinda cheap things she does? Haha..Look at myself in the mirror?well..im not as cheap as her,as low class as her,as nk as her.I dont go and offer guys to place their hands on my thighs.I dont ask my frens to cheat on their girl friends.I also dont go around putting on an act,be a hypocrite.
Haha..i dont need to have a five year treaty kinda thing so that i can get guys.But this poor girl have to? I really feel sad for her la.Wait for so long,then that guy finally take a second look at her.
Well..Anyway,thanks for coming into my blog,i can see that besides all my regulars,alot more ppl read my blog!Be it pathetic ones or my close ones.
27/04/06
stayed at roger's place,didnt go school,too tired cos the day before didnt sleep.Slept the whole day,then around evening,went to Harbour Front,Dragon Gate restaurant to celebrate my grandpa's birthday.Alot of ho liao!Eat until very shiok.Um..Victor,ah gin and my sis didnt turn up,my sis work,and ah gin and vic is having their exams.Anyway,after makan,went back to roger's place,lepak awhile den went to have mac at east coast,den to orchard swensens to eat ice cream.
Roger then feel like playing some games,we headed to Marina south for some arcade games which is darn fun,TrillDrive3.yea..den went home. :) being with him is so much fun,always taken care of.Thanks darling!
Um..few more hours before i go to school,lesson at 8,dunno how to die.Then later meeting meiyi after school.I hope she wake up on time man,and prepare fast,later gonna wait again.. -_-"
5:59 AM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
im dishearted to do anything today.
The sky is dark,so is my soul.
My house is dark and lonely,so is my heart.
If only things arent the way they are,
If only things didn't turn out the way they are.
My phone is silent,despite a new phone,its still silent.
I just hope everything turns out better,
I just hope he will feel better.
With or without me,
i pray,that you'll be happier.
With or without me,
i pray,the sun shines brighter.
With or without me,
i wish u a great day ahead.
i still miss u,like the day we met.
2:02 PM
Slept rather early jus now..around 9+? And now i jus woke up,cos i dreamt and jump up awake..Um..first is i dreamt that roger brought mi to some gathering,friends gathering? Anyway,in the dream he has got quite a few close girl friends,den he offer to let them hold their arm,and left me behind cos he keep talking to them.i was so so darn pekcek! Then after that,i dreamt that my sister call mi,yea elder sis-rachel.She starts asking me about the contact lens,the one which could make the eyes look bigger?darn now i forgt wad is it call..yea anyway i was explaining it to her bout how it works.Then dunno how dunno why,i jump up awake,checked e time and i found out its stil very early.
Alrite,my second day of school and i didnt go. -_-"
Cos since yesterday,my stomach was not feeling well-diarrhea.Even till now man.. -_-" wad has happened!!!??
Anyway,i didnt go sch but i went to roger's place.Cos he suppose to wake up at 7,but 6+ i cal him,he cant wake up,so i go his house n stil find him sleeping.Yea...den wake him up for his big day,den he went off,i ended slping there.
But when he came back,den i noe the day aint great for him.The lecturers penalised their work till very jia lat.However,all his individual work all pass,despite all the last min work.But the group work fail,and gt to retake e module JUST because the burned disc cant open! Means they didnt even gt to see their work n they fail them! WTF!?NAFA though produce good designers,but they pian jiak one!Everything also charge..All they wan is $$$$!! -_-"
i feel sad for him..cos i tink the group work will pass if they see it. :(
In e evening,we went to pick my mom up at my house,den we 3 went tampines mall.I got my new phone.V3 pink.I wanted to get the black one,but all outlets dun have already,left the one at North Point. So left silver and pink.Of cos i'll take pink,but cos sylvie is also holding on to a pink one,she jus bought recently..so i feel like abit copy cat..Hai~ But really..there was no intention of copying..
Den after getting e phone,we went makan,den back to my place.Roger left at 9,he was very tired!So after he left,i sleep,til now..dunno can go back to sleep not..Something's wrong wif my body clock.
Well..i got to mention bout meiyi here too..Um..but today nv contact her..Anyway,jus hope that she'll feel better,and yes,be strong girl!
Yea..anyway,im happy bout my v3,gonna use it later!
1:35 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
First day of sch is tiring..cos i didnt sleep e day before,hm..had some probs wif roger,yea im at fault..sorry..Anyway,i jus hope everything will go on smoothly la..Went to his place in the middle of the night,Gary,wayne and edric at his place.They were rushing for their Final exam work.Yea..roger thought he wouldnt be able to make it,cos he gt alot of work not done,and he has no mood to,cos we were in some quarrel?anyway i made him unhappy.But lucky enuff,he managed to finish everything,maybe not e best work,but at least done. =D
Anyway,back to my first day in school.Met zhe ming den go for lecture together,cos now onli mi and zhe ming xiang yi wei ming..all our class mates all diff class..sian..However,we are still on diff path la..onli most of the lectures together.Um..been to afew tutorial class,and ya,i noe none!Everyone seems to have their own grp of frens..now i feel the pain of yvette and ah girl man..no one to rely on..haha..Its time to be independent! I really hope i can cope man! I pray i pray!
What worse is now im retaking my EMaths 2 module,and there is an upcoming MCQ quiz bout Emaths 1.I fucking forgt everything man...dunno how!Hai...And from now all tutorials i wil be alone,group work also dunno how to die!
Met up with varian,karwai,jeff,boon kheng,adrain,zhe ming,willie,tat wee,chao nan and? er..think tts it?Anyway,went lunch with them,our usual grp for last 2 sems.Think ya we r very much bonded man...now goin on seperate ways very sian..though some of them lucky stil stick together la.. JEALOUS!
Hm..den went to change our CDS together at TCC.We all choose Arts appreciation,cos alot of our grp are in it.haha..And i heard its easy and fun.Well..i tink if all of us were to be together again,there will be much more fun man.now got to check each other's time table to know who is free during lunch le.if not no frens sian!
Hm..havent meet up wif boon and gang for quite long..Dont noe wad are they all up to...hee!
And meiyi,think i need to mention her name on every post,so that i can make her feel impt,feel missed,feel remembered. =D Um..she recently jus broke up wif jj,well..maybe tts onli e matter of time bah..she deserves better i feel.Since she have already changed so much after my lecture,she really is getting alot better.Her temper might not change la..but com'on,temper very hard to change de la.She is born hot-headed,she is born like tis for coming 21 yrs,hw to expect changes?We cant expect ppl to change,but jus accept.But if there is really no way to accept,den it means the differences is too huge?Um..Anyway,i love her the way she is,though she sometimes make mi very pekcek,and we when we quarrel is ji tao 1,we stil love each other.
She told me she quite gam wif candy,Well..maybe someday i can see if candy is our kuan,but i trust meiyi la..she seldom say ppl belongs to our kuan one leh..Um..one day think we might have our girls night out together? o.O
Well..now im not slping,cos later gt to wake roger up for school.It will be a important day for him man.I wish him well!And also later i got sch at 8am!!!!!!! hai~feel like skipping school already.It's only the 2nd day! Man~cannot like tt..i have to pia..
Um..tml think i might be getting my V3?thinking wad colour i wanna take,cos maybe i wun like the black?black like kinda common?but Roger ask mi to take leh..dunno la..*tHinkiNg*
5:13 AM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Um..on fri,we wanted to meet janet,kenny,boon,n all e others for a bowling session.But dunno why in e end all dua..all nv go..we ended goin kbox wif pris,shannon and malcom.They were very high..We all had fun..but roger and i were realli very tired..cos roger like onli slept for 3hrs?den went back to sch to pia his assignment,and mi slp abit longer than him,but have to work..We were very tired,but we craze ard wif pris,shannon and malcom.they were dancing all e way tru out the session.Haha..Initially, roger doesnt sing,n dun like ktv,but cos he knows tt i wil enjoy it,tt's y he is not against it.In the end,he plays along,sings and enjoyed himself too.. :)
Yest nite,no meeting again..dunno why everyone becomes like tt,den roger and i jus slp our nite tru,den until 2+,we wanna go eat wan tok sek and den meet peter go makan,den go play billard..Um..at least our saturday nite not very clay la..
Peter jus came back from taiwan,and bought some gifts for roger..and bought mi a cap too! how thoughtful...a good fren to keep roger says.indeed.
Well..tml sch reopen liao..very sian..hai~ wonder how it would be like,cos all the class mates all change,meaning to say i everyone also dunno tml man..gt to start all over again?Well..anyway tml i will meet karwai,tat wee they all for lunch! those that are free on 12 i tink..=D if not dunno how man..ALONE!!!NIGHTMARE!!!!
Um..Meiyi is not very happy recently..cos she says like i got no time for her,and if this carries on,she's afraid tt we would drift,say i always not free..i dunno..she says she feels tt i m restricted,she feel's tt im not as happy as b4,not like the regine she use to see.Maybe we havent been meeting up tt often ever since bah..Well..im not very sure..but i noe i still n will always love her.
Anyway,alecia is too cheap to be true..yucks!She is fucking irritating...ties a ribbon on her head and throw herself to ppl..yucks!
7:17 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Um..havent been blogging for quite some days huh..Dunno wher to start now..cos i've got a bad memory..Yea..
Anyway..was trying to look for a job,and pris picked mi up,haha..i'll be helping her at her kiosk..at city link..outside nooch!Went for "training" on mon,and yea..quite ok i guess..maybe i didnt do a gd job tt day,cos i stil duno e products well bah..abit paiseh..as time pass by should be ok?Think pris quite stress la..she looks stress to me.. :) relax gal..Then on mon,me,pris and roger went to have lunch at pastamania...The moment we reached there,there is these few TPJC xiao mei mei kinda stare at pris..look at her from heads to toes man! BTH..Pris darn HOT!i was disgusted by kids nowadays! After we kpkb right behind them loudly..they dare not stare again? hai~ Kids nowadays..Act too much..
Wow..these few days roger feed mi till i tink i gain another 3 kg..haha..Everynite supper..Everynite Wan Toh Sek,HK cafe,Simpang...Will die!I cant carry on like that man..will die of high cholestrol.. :P Too good life with him by my side..haha..Happy!!
Anyway,yest,went kia kia at tamp,Went toysrus,haha..alot of nice games! gonna get SOMETHINGS when i get my pay..Gotta get alot of things man..And either a V3 or a SLVR 7.. =D with MY earnings..slowly la..too much things in mind..Back to today,shopping and catch a show,"reincarnation". A LOUSY SHOW!!!!dun watch man..mi and roger keep kpkb after the show..its darn lame..story line like shit! -_-"liao $$
Um..Roger and i meeting Meiyi tml..So long nv see her le.. =D
6:11 AM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Released! Happy!
wow..im very happy today!Well..my instinct proves me right..i used to afraid i might regret in e future..but not i definately wil not..cos im disgusted..yea those actions and things i found out..yucks!i can nv tolerate such stuff..
And one thing that made me very darn happy about is that finally everything is over..my bestie,meiyi gives me her support and finally we talked!And yea..she accepted roger..and even wants me to bring him along on her bday! :) thanks dear girl!
And Roger brought me go shopping and bought me a bag and our whale whale~!Den went to have eat sushi at cine..My roger like to have ho liao..Well..feel abit like tai tai already..nv expect all tis..But yea..gt to save la..he wants to buy himself a EVO in e future..yea..he is sensible and thinks for his future!Happy being wif him..
And why am i so free to write my blog now?im at his place..and i suddenly wants to have cup noodles (Nissin's tom yam),so he ji tao go 7-11 buy for me.. :P offered to go wif him..but he insisted i stay home.. =) Maybe cos jus nw while bathing..i dunno suddenly inhaled something..dunno wad hair or wad la..and have discomfort on my throat..he wants me to feel better that's why.. :) HAPPY!!
5:50 AM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Exhausted!
Um...im fucking exhausted!very tired..yea didnt go to work today again..well..think i better quit soon.Dont have the mood to work,and like that i spoil their schedule,which wil make me more paiseh.Recently really got no mood..dunno why..
Anyway,i neglected her recently,cos i dunno wad to say,and wellshe is kind enough to give me time.I love her stil as much..Well..might be meeting her tml,i'll call her again i guess. :) sorry meiyi,i'll call u tml.
Yawn! didnt have much slp recently i guess,and did really eat anything for days.Maybe jus a few mouth of macaroni soup,or some soup noodles.Feel kinda weak now,roger says maybe i didnt eat much and unusual eating time?Um..yea i guess so..hope i wont faint! Feel like vomiting,feels like slping,and my stomach very gau wei!
Oh yea,nearly forgotten,jay came over and find mi yesterday,had a chat wif him from 4+ til 8+ in e morn.He lost some weight,hai~ He told me things that have been happening in his life after i was gone,how he feel and all. :( i feel sorry,but i really cant be an angle.He said that he has quit gambling,and working on quitting smoking.I really hope he'll do it la..not for me,but for his own good.Jay,u mus think bout ur future k?dun only say,mus act on it.
Well...at first i must admit,i'm abit shaken by him,but after much thinking,im stil determine.Sorry jay..think we can only be frens?I know u wanted mi to write something good,but i feel,i might be delaying ur time.You tried,so u wont regret now yea?We'll still be frens..
8:45 PM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
NAFA
Um..now am in NAFA with roger,acc him to sch to finish his work.Um..yea didnt go for today again,really no mood man..dunno why.Well..Meiyi! com'on go check up tis site. http://www.nafa.edu.sg/in_courses/diploma/2006/contents.htm
Its those courses that they offer in NAFA,so yea..u can go and try.
Rem i told you guys about me wanting to join NAFA?well..dun tink im joining already i guess..Over heard my mom saying she wouldnt have that money for mi to study. :( so maybe i tink,though i like to think on the creative side,its all about interest,next time when i earn,i could go out and get certs myself? yea...but haha..if meiyi joining,i might consider again..cos we could acc each other..haha!
Um..in nafa,i jus saw kok peng,yea ah peng (ex classmate from amkss).Um..he grew taller,and yea he says i slim dwn alrdy..haha..everyones says that,but i tink recently i lose some more weight. CAnt really slp,nor eat recently(though im VERY hungry..Is that something good or bad?
Besides ah peng,still saw a guy who used to work at my house area,who always talk to mi about O'levels yrs back.haha..seems like i noe alot of ppl in nafa huh..Now Roger and Yangyang is doing their project,didnt wanna disturb,so wel..carry on doing my blog.
Just now on e way here,was chatting wif roger about gambling and stuff..Um..makes me think alot of wad my sis told mi,about my tt dad.Hai..kinda feel ashame leh..dunno why,cos i nv imagined myself being associated wif a guy who can be so violent and ki siao.Until im going 20,den i really sort of know wad happened.I feel strange,feel like a stranger for the past 20 yrs,feel like im one who lost my memory after some accident.Moreover,i dun fucking remember my tt so called dad.All i noe was 'that fellow in e pic is one who married my mom'.Aww..i feel so pathetic.Real bad.
Roger says im strong,though i always thought tt im not,and am a weakling.But i tink im slowly getting stronger after everything that happened in my life,and after the chat wif my sis,i feel stronger.I'll never be a weakling again,despite wadever that hit mi hard.
So darling meiyi and pals..u all dun worry..im ok,and im STRONG..
9:53 PM
The stranger him
jus now i spoke to my sis on msn,yea my elder sister,Rachel.Wow,its the first time i spoke to her for so long,told her wad happened to me and me too asked her wad happened to her and her ex-es last time.Um..i kinda understand wad she is trying to tel mi about daniel..its about the same as mi n jay,brought up in a diff way,diff thinking and all.Anyway,she shared with me about the turning point in her life and about our dad.I was nv told bout anything about my dad from my mom,and am quite pathetic cos i noe nothing,dun even rem his look.
Am quite amazed and sad after hearing.Well..i should share a little..My dad is a gambler,and always hitted my mom in the past.Cos he doesnt have money to gamble,and when he come home wif bad mood,or wadeva,he wil vent it on my mom.tts y i hate gambler!i will nv marry to a gambler after hearing man.and dad got alot of alter at home,and he prays to whichever that he thinks could gives him luck,and eventually went crazy!yea i really mean crazy. then alot la..anyway i heard he went in woodbridge once,and den eventually he commited suicide at my old house area.My sister all along knows wad is happening,but she didnt cry and she's not sad.Cos e beatings my mom get,she sees it in her eyes.I didnt cry too,cos i was too young,2yrs old.She told me we were both singing while in my aunt's car when we went to take our dad's picture. Um..i learn that all this made my sis strong,she is a strong one.I'll be strong too,no matter wad blew mi.
My mom is worried sick bout me,but she doesnt noe that i would nv hurt myself for anyone in the world.Well..think i got to find time and tell her wad reali went on,and yea assure her..im tinking both my sis and i have the same genes,we mature at a young age,well...some how la..and we slim dwn at ard the same age too..haha~!
i had a great time chatting wif sis! i love her..haha..anyway,to all..i'm ok already,human got to move on after every setbacks,and learn from it..hope he can move on too..and someday we can be frens again..
5:13 AM
Sunday, April 02, 2006
ENDED
well..after his bday,really made mi tink alot,consider alot..jus felt so tired..like i dun wanna think anymore..dun wanna decide on anything and jus wanna get on my life..start a new..i maybe unfair to him,i maybe wrong to do such cruel things to him..but i dunno why im jus so tired..but i dun wanna see him like tis also..once before i sounded e break up to him,i imagine if after that we kinda patched or something..there would be a scar,things would nv be e same..i feel.
i m tired til a point i reali dun mind making everything sounds my fault,no explanation needed,maybe by tis way it could bring both of us good faster.at least for now,i wouldnt wanna think about it,jus wanna live on my way,fix my heart right,and move on..
Well..yesterday jhao,ww,jay,meiyi and jj went ard looking for mi..sory to make u all worried..but im reali fine..jus tt i dun feel like goin home,wanna stay outside.no matter whether we are together or not,u guys wil stil be my frens..ESP meiyi..i hope nothing much wil change between us.
And to jay,i noe it hitted you hard.but i reali dunno why,dun feel like thinking,i need time to sort things out,and now i stil feel we might jus be wasting our time.i dunno.. i want you to take care..take good care of urself..finish ur studies..yea..take care!
Well..yesterday went bbq at pasir ris..i wanna thank pris,janet,shunfu,roger and all that consoled mi,that cares for mi. Thanks guys!
3:30 PM
