you are already a voice inside my head.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

damn pissed in school today..
The buses in the morning are so packed, and i got to wake up at 730 everyday from now on, so that i will have enough time to travel to school.. REally damn shag. I haven't got enough sleep for the past 1 week? And either work or school.. Argh.. i feel damn sick. I can feel im getting sick soon..

The damn supervisors swapped my grp's proj with another grp. Fark im damn pissed can, cos it wasted our effort. We were so damn excited, all ready, and already thinking hard for our projects.. And now? fuck them. really. fuck them.
Fucking unprofessional, keep on changing details since last sem. Fuck la.. Im really boiling, it jus make me lost interest in doing swee projects la.

Pissed and tired. Fuck it. And i cant rest, tmr im goin for product training after school, and working in e weekends. No time at all.

10:04 PM

Monday, April 23, 2007

And so again..
Guess it still didnt didnt work out well la..

Anyway, im dead beat..
Went to school today, and was nearly late again.
Luckily kar wai called me, cos he reached early, and thought i would b ther for smoking session while waiting for time to report. But then, i was still in bed.. Luckily la..

Had briefings, and met the supervisor for more details bout our grp projects..
I'm attached out, not everyday though, still waiting for the schedule to be out. At times when we doesn't have to report to e office, we will be in school doing projects.
We would have chance to meet clients and the surgents, and we might have chance to go msia for roadshows. Seems like a pretty good deal, great exposure and experience in a field that i dun have any knowledge on. Well, that's where learning takes place isn't it?
At first, i grumble alot, about group mates and all, but nw, i tink it should be alright la.. I'll try to work with my other group mates. Needless to say, nutt is a no prob la..

The only bad thing is that the office is at sin ming, near bishan. Damn la.. travelling is really a hassel, cos there's no straight bus.. Sigh! Luckily there's nutt to give me a ride when we need to go there. Of cos i'll share his burden la.. his petrol and all.. If not, its a big headache.

However, tmr i will have to find my own way, cos he's sick.. Get well soon nutt!

Catch up with alot of my classmates during school today, and got to know different projects that they have to work on. From coming out with a robort, to fuel cell thingy..
Really, its a big headache this sem la.. We can't slack, have to constantly follow up our projects.. Term breaks burnt, everything burnt. But well, i feel its kinda challenging la.. Looking forward in working on the projects allocated to me. Though i noe it spells trouble.

I've been rather into trances lately, listening everyday.. Nice ones.
Yawn! Dead Beat + Heavy eye lids!
Heading to bed soon, im too tired to even talk..Yawn!

9:58 PM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Alot of times, i noe im pushing my emotions down to the least.
I tried reali hard to control, to hide.
I tried all my means, cos i noe, i must not turn back.
The things i wanna see ain't there, and after this 1 week plus, its proven it won't happen.

I know i appeared pretty strong, i know i did it just right.
But at times, i reali need someone to listen, and allow me to pour some tears.
But, i cant find anyone suitable, or mayb i just don't wanna pour any to anyone.
I'll just have to get stronger, and i believe in no time, everything will go smooth sailing.

Each and everyday, i kept myself entertained with shows, movies, and rest.
Everyone's working, everyone's busy.
I'm left at home, doing nothing but slack.
I dun wanna bother anyone, jus bcos im in this state.
Cos i reali understand, understand tt this kinda left out just cant be blamed.
But, reali am kinda bored.
Yet again, i dun reali like to go to places when im aint in the mood.
Contradicting? But of cos.
I dun even understand wad i want, how would u noe.

Well, mayb i jus need some things to occupy my time, and jus keep me busy, so that i cant think of anythin else.

Anyway, yea its 6.53am now.
Meiyi is sleeping over at my place.
Its about soon she gonna wake up alrdy..
I hope she wont whine late.. I can't take those whining.. :P
Especially when the house is so darn quiet now.
The whining will sure wake my mom up.

6:39 AM

Monday, April 02, 2007

oh yes,back to blogging.
Its 3.44am now in e morning, and i jus cant get to slp.
All besties are in their dreamlands, so am kinda bored.

ok, i found some new aims, and am currently working towards my goal.
Learn more skills, it will sure come in handy in the near future.
Especially when i know i do need those skills for work. :D
As always, wanted to be in the advertising field, where my interest lies.
But that also means i got to work very hard, both for money and the certs.
Looking forward in meeting more friends of the same interest too.
Though my interest is there, but i really hope i can excel in them too.

Im working hard to put the past down too, and work towards my own future.
I can't be dwelling in e past right? One have to move on, especially when i see a fruitful path ahead. Moreover, i am alrdy left with not much time to fulfil my dreams, my goals. I really ought to make good use of the precious time. Better start my planning now than to be sorry.

Have been meeting val more recently, we decided to help each other out of all these redundant shits. We will pull through together, and work towards our goals. God will love those who treasure their life. We got more important stuffs to achieve now than having useless relationships.

SMSed sis about my plan, and hope i can start my start achieving goals that i've always wanted this may. By may, we will be be the happiest birthday girl on earth!

Yea, my 21st birthday. Still have no clue on what to do then.
Chalet = too much barang barangs.
Party @ club = too much diff groups, too much expenses.
KTV = too normal.
BBQing = abit kidish?

Argh! i tink i rather not celebrate man. Save me from all the hassel.
Any good suggestions anyone?

Aww im so darn full! I just ate homecooked curry chicken + rice.
And yes, at this hour! God damn it, i really put on too much weight.
I need diet pills! I need some efficient ways to loose weight man.. KAN!
Feel like puking now. :S

3:41 AM