um..yesterday is my last day at parkway watson promoting truematch..hm..pleasant day,actually planned to have pasta mania buddy meal with e girls at parkway,but kat start work late,den n tis n tat..we didnt go and have pasta mania.Hm..today some of u all mus have started sch..ke lian! haha..mine next week..cant wait to go back! :P Hm..den at nite jay n family came look for mi,den we went to bedok 85 makan dinner..ah po's minced meat noodle took so long!yaya..den mi n jay went home,n niam di di e whole nite..wahaha!
this morn,i w0ke up n checked my ebay bidding result,but OMG! im outbidded! im vry angry man! by only $0.50!! shit! im so so angry!i love e top alot man!its a levis halter neck..ANGRY angry!!!actually e day is all about jay n i niam-ing..nothing much..watch tv,play game n all..oh ya..n sleep..and i w0ke up at 8+ bcos of a nightmare!i dreamt of a philipino guy,uses his finger and poke my butt!!and i got so angry and kan him wif some hokkien well-known vulgarities! and fought him,den dunno how dunno why he gt his friends,den i fought wif his 3 philipino girl-frens!..........den i wake up le..
hai~now dun reali feel good..jus quarrel wif jay..and deleted n blocked 2 quite new friends from my msn..n i jus wanna lead a peaceful life frm now..dun wan anyone to be in our way..
i hate myself too..i dunno why when my temper flares up,i'll always end up shouting,givin that disgusting expression,and wadeva i say is like so hurting.. =`( i dun wanna be this way..i wonder when i'll stop..
i always wanted you to choose mi from a million,and not stick wif me cos u only have me..i've told u a lot of times,and i reali mean it..but i hated myself,i said that,i meant that,but when real things happen,i dun feel good..i'll even flare my temper..i hate myself..i hatemyself for saying so much hurting words today..to hurt ur pride,if i were u,i wouldnt wanna dote a girl like this..i wouldnt wanna be wif her,i feel so bad...jus so bad...i hate my temper,i hate my childishness,i hate my character,hate my possesive-ness,i hate everything thats in me..i just hate regine...im sorry..but i noe wadeva done cannot be undone..
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